I don't really know what to write about today, but I figure I'm way behind in discussion posts and just a bit behind on blogs, and so I better get going on them.
I guess one major thing that has been on my mind lately is the future. We have less than twenty days of junior high left. You would think that now things would begin to feel different than they have all year, or at least from the past two years, but nothing has really changed. Of course, CRTs are on the computers this year and that makes things different. The tests are not as stressful as they were before and they actually seem as easy as they should.
Other than that though there is not anything that feels any different than it has for me all through junior high. My classes are still the same, my friends and I still talk about the same things, and over all everything is just as it has been for the past two years.
I guess it would seem more real to me if things were beginning to change now. If I could feel things gradually becoming it different it would be easier to grasp how close we are to being finished with junior high. There are so many things that will be coming to a close in the next few weeks, and it is really hard to picture how things are going to be after I am done at Fairfield.
In my mind I picture my seventh grade orientation. I remember looking around the school and thinking about how big and scary it looked. I had been so excited for junior high back then, and I wasn't at all afraid of anything except being able to open my locker. I compare that day to the open house at Layton High a couple of weeks ago. It was a lot different than my seventh grade orientation. My mom dropped me, Carley, and my two little sisters off at the school and we went straight in to get started looking around our new school.
I saw my friends and we walked around looking at places together. We weren't guided by anyone as we were at the seventh grade orientation. It was weird. There were only some parents there. Not a ton. Most kids just came with their friends. I realized then that I really was afraid of getting lost in there next year, and I know that it is a realistic fear.
High school is going to be very, very different from junior high. I know that. I'm excited for it. I can't wait to have only four classes a day and I can't wait to take driver's ed and all of the other fun classes I'm going to take. I am so excited for high school. I just wish it felt more real than it currently does. I wish that things were already changing more, because then I'd be able to grasp that I only have a few more months until I am in high school.
Well, I guess I found something to write about. It is the same thing I've been writing about for a while now, but whatever. I guess I have other things I need to be doing so I'll try to write more later.
