Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Overwhelmed

I say that I know certain things shouldn't matter anymore, that I don't care. But sometimes I just get overwhelmed by everything and I wish I had some of the more insignificant comforts to fall back on. Today is one of those days. I just wish there was someone that I could really tell everything. I don't think such a person truly exists, though.

This is a not-so-great poem I wrote today. I thought I would share.


You ask what is wrong and I
want to answer, freely, openly.
The answer, though, is too long,
too real to tell. I know that
you will not really care to hear it.

You do not really want to know
that I feel I am not good enough.
You have no desire to listen to
me say that I feel that there is
no one who really understands.
It is too cliché, too much of an
excuse for me to really feel.

Still, I want to tell you
everything.

Instead I keep my worries, my
insecurities to myself. They build
and build until I can no longer
stand them. I break down, unable
to resist any longer, but there is
still no one to listen.